A ghost of what she could be
flutters around in the daylight,
at night though she is all he said she was.
Safety, love
these are words she knows nothing about.
Bitch, whore these are the words she knows.
In her warped brain she even longs to hear that
icy voice again.
To feel the handcuffs tighten.
Because it meant that for an hour or two,
she felt something,
that
she was worth something.
Fae, your poem touches the heart. For me, it speaks to the emptiness victims feel (or numbness victims experience). Cheers to your courage, hopes for your healing.
Hi Fae, thanks for sharing. Recovery from abuse is a common theme among some of the most outstanding, powerful, and talented women I know. For instance, our Here Women Talk radio show, Where Is My Guru, is blessed to have Jennifer Cusano as our intern, and her post about her struggle as an abuse survivor is here:
http://herewomentalk.com/hit-me-baby-one-more-time
I hope you know how much you are valued, and feel free to learn more about our show which airs every Friday at 11 am EST on Here Women Talk at http://www.whereismyguru.com.
With love, Diane
As a survivor, I think you’ll appreciate this original post by Donna Gore
http://herewomentalk.com/lest-we-forget%E2%80%A6-being-grateful-even-as-homicide-survivors
Fae, Truly extraordinary poetry. Every word is powerfully gripping and holds a meaning. May God’s arms wrap around you as you battle all the emotions you dealt and still deal with daily.
Thank you both for your words of encouragement, it’s more comforting than I can say knowing I’m no longer alone. It’s been so long since I was able to express anything!
Hugs and love.
Thank you for sharing. It is a powerful poem.
You are worth something!
He is worth NOTHING!!
I hope you soon begin to feel safety and love every minute of every day.
Fae, your poem opened my eyes. It helped me realize something I never before understood, and you did that in a few short lines. Wow. That’s a powerful poem. Thank you for sharing these feelings. You’ve opened my eyes to understanding more about what it feels like to be a victim. “Victim” is the operative word. Thank you for having the courage to come forth with this. You are helping many people, not only other survivors who struggle with expressing similar feelings, but also educating those of us who are fortunate enough to have been spared abuse. Congratulations, Fae. We’re featuring your post on the main page of http://www.HereWomenTalk.com. Blessings. (HUGS) ~Kay