Get over who you were and be who you are   ~ Bertha

Yesterday…I noticed a solitary leaf clinging to an otherwise naked tree…not really an earth shattering event…and most likely not unique…mostly likely being duplicated on thousands of other trees…along thousands of other roads…

I’m not sure why it caught my attention…but…once it was in my awareness…Bertha
grabbed hold of it…as quickly…and firmly…as a child snatching a sucker in a
candy store…

There was a correlation to my life…duh…there’s always a correlation to my life…

She pointed out…again…we’ve had this discussion before…that the leaf represented fear of letting go…it was clinging to the old…the no longer useful…the dead…refusing to let go…and become who it now was…

I let her words in…even though the message was well-worn…it struck a new chord this time…the fear…I would like to say concern…but it is a fear…of being who I have become…who I am…is in reality…the fear of being pummeled back into who I was…

If I never go there…I will never be forced back…I will stay in this no man’s land…a dry leaf…clinging to a winter tree…a familiar place…where no growth takes place…where no dreams are realized…

The words definitely make a new melody…soothing me…like a lullaby…I have already become the person that I am…there’s no stopping that…no going back…I am who I now am…it’s okay…let go of the tree…float…

Jane

(Bertha is the star character of Bertha-Size Your Life!…and my voice of reason…)