Have you ever contemplated suicide? I did this weekend.

This weekend I gave serious thought to doing myself in. I’ve thought about it before, but this weekend I even looked online for painless ways to kill myself.

I don’t have the guts to shoot myself, hang myself or jump off a tall building. I want to go painlessly.

So I looked for a combination of pills or drugs I could take to do myself in.

I guess I”m not the only one who thinks about it.

My first Googled search resulted in “The Ten Minute Suicide Guide” on Cracked.com, a post that’s had over 3 million views.

Oddly enough, it was written with a sense of humor. While I didn’t end up laughing, it did cause me to pause and think about options.

I’m not out of the woods, yet. Please don’t misinterpret this as a call for help. It’s not. Though I do find it therapeudic to talk about it.

You know, something that keeps crossing my mind is this common statement that we’ve all heard over and over. It goes like this: God will not give you more than you can handle.

That statement is total B.S. If that were true, nobody would ever kill themselves.

Have you ever contemplated killing yourself? How did you get past it?