Hello God. Is it you or is it us?

As a writer, I was finding no words to really describe how I am feeling about the massacre of 27 innocent people at the Sandy Hook school in Newtown CT last Friday. I just knew that I was devastated again because maybe the one true peacemaker might have been among those sweet six and seven year old babies who were slaughtered. I always go there when there is a mass murder. Did we just kill someone who could have brought peace to our world?  I started to think that way right after John Lennon’s murder.

I figured everyone from the Pope down was having their say and then it hit me. This all has to do with us and God, the Universe, Bob or whoever you go to when you are in need of answers.

And we go to the deity’s throat when we need someone to blame.

Then I realized that this was what I was really mad at. Let us not take any responsibility for our actions. Let’s blame God (and please insert whatever name works for you). We didn’t cause this. God did. Really?

People are asking why God would do this. I don’t think God does this. I think we do. And to be fair to people in the throes of unimaginable grief, I don’t blame them for saying that. I blame the rest of us. But what I think those families should be saying is, ”Why did YOU do this to us?”

Do you think God would really do this to us? Do you? This is coming from someone who has not attended mass willingly since she was 16 years old.  But I really do not think for a second that God did this to those families in Ct. Why would God kill babies who were learning how to pronounce big words?

She didn’t. We did.

And I believe this goes beyond free will. We know what is right and wrong. We know it instinctively and for those how don’t – you learned it from your parents, religious leaders, siblings and teachers. You get free will. We just abuse it over and over again.

I am going out on a limb here, but I don’t think God (or whoever you think came up with this idea) created all of us so we can kill each other. If that is true, then why bother? God could just go to the movies instead.

I am not going to go on but wanted to share the three reasons why I think this sort of murder will go on and on and on and on…

We don’t give a shit for our fellow man/woman.

People with mental issues are really not our problem. They are crazy and we’re not. Hide your good china.

Too many damn guns.

So until we really go back to the drawing board and rewire how we think, feel and love then more children will have to be sacrificed.

We just don’t care enough to admit that it is our fault.