Kindle Fire – Midlife Mom’s Reluctance to Change

Kindle Fire – Midlife Mom’s Reluctance to Change

I finally broke down and bought a Kindle but I held out for as long as I could. For more than a year, I watched my husband read from the glow of his ipad each night in bed before we fell asleep. I kept thinking that he would come to his senses, tell me how awkward the ipad was, and go back to reading books. I kept dropping hints, telling him of all the articles I’d read about artificial light disrupting sleep patterns, and how the convenience of his ipad could never compete with the feel of a book in his hands. I reminded him that our king size bed was the place of bedtime stories when our kids were growing up. It was hallowed ground. It was where we turned the pages of Dr Seuss and Roald Dahl. It was where we propped up large books in small laps. It was a place of love and pajamas and paper and ink.

I’ve spent a lot of time with my books. I’ve arranged them on the shelf, stacked them horizontally, lined them up vertically and alphabetized them by author. I’ve written in them, dusted them off and loaned them out. I’ve walked over to my bookshelf just to look at them so I could remember how they made me feel, what they taught me, how they became a part of me and how they changed me. And yesterday, I gave some away. I packed up six boxes full and drove them to a nearby donation site. Then, I came home, dusted off the shelves, and created space for something new.

Midlife insists that we let go and move on but it didn’t seem fair that our books had to be involved. But I take my Kindle and I move along.  I walk into our family room and sit with my children. My daughter surfs the web with her MacBook and my son watches a video on his laptop. I turn a page with my stylus and my kids prop up their computers on their laps. It is a place of screens and keyboards and teenagers and love.


  1. Amy Ruhlin

    ps And yes I love my kindle and the shelves feel great!

  2. Amy Ruhlin

    Kay I so appreciate your kind, supportive words. Title change is fine as is photo..still learning how to upload!
    Thank you so made my day. Hope you have a wonderful weekend

  3. Kay Van Hoesen

    P.S. Hope you don’t mind. We added a feature and changed the title slightly to help people find this … and we featured it on the home page. Thanks!

  4. Kay Van Hoesen

    I take it you like your Kindle. This is a BEAUTIFUL short story! I could FEEL the feelings of you and your family … the hallowed ground … in “a place of love and pajamas and paper and ink.”
    Congratulations on letting go and moving on. How does it feel with your shelves cleared? GREAT story!!!


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