As the candle dies out,
and the flames disapear from my sight.
I’ve never felt so good in my life.
so numb,
comfortably, brokenly numb.
so hateingly, uncaringly, perfectly
numb.

i can’t feel on the inside,
can’t feel anything.
So lets see if im real on the inside,
let’s see if i bleed on the outside like i do on the inside.

so numb,
comfortably, brokenly numb.
so hateingly, uncaringly, perfectly
numb.

These scars aren’t my wounds,
these scars are my trophies
each saying to you
screaming at you,
heres where I am
here’s where i was for this moment in time
i was free
i was fine.

not bothered or hurt by anyone

can’t you see?

so numb,
comfortably, brokenly numb.
so hateingly, uncaringly, perfectly
numb.

and my struggle goes on even when you are there.
you can turn your back but it wont make this disapear.
save me if you think that you want to.
how do you know if im even a whole person?

maybe i like how this feels…..

so numb,
comfortably, brokenly numb.
so hateingly, uncaringly, perfectly
numb.

so numb,perfectly numb.
(giving in to the pain)
so dangerously, confidently,
(maybe this is my control)
numb.